i'm afraid that if i ever found a cause, i wouldn't have the guts to fight.

i feel like i'm a pretty smart person. i know a few things about life and give good advice more often than not.

so why can't i listen to my own voice? take my own advice? learn my own lessons?

i tell my friends they're beautiful even if they can't see it themselves. but i simply can't accept that about myself.

i tell them it's okay to not have all the answers, to not have it all figured out at the age of 21, and that i'm sure they'll get where they want to be in life because they're smart and passionate and have incredible dreams. but i can't stop beating myself up for the exact same thing.

i tell them not to give in to missing the incredible people in their lives because they are incredible people too, and they have to learn to share their experiences with themselves and be happy with that. but i'm so scared of losing my grip on the people i love that i'm paralyzed and unable to make plans and take the inevitable steps towards the unknown future.

i tell them it's all gonna be okay, that everything works itself out in the end. but i don't believe me.